I stayed up too late creating this blog, so the morning came way to soon... I got ready and did a mad dash to the ELC to print off my note outlines for my Human Developmental Psychology class...sounds riveting doesn't it?... and then it was off to Physiology!
Today in Physiology we continued to learn about nerve synapses and everything that can and will go wrong when your nervous system is trying to respond to stimuli...I never imagined there was SO MUCH involved with something that seemed so simple on the surface. Our bodies are works of art! And God is a genius to be able to think of things on such a small scale... We had a quiz today, and even though I've been studying the material everyday and felt really confident about my knowledge, some of the questions were worded weird, and that may have gotten the best of me... I have until Friday to master the material up until this point, and I'm hoping to get my quiz back and fully understand any of the mistakes that I made.
Human Developmental Psychology...this class is going to be the death of me.... Not that it's not interesting....because the subject matter is actually pretty cool stuff....but you could sum up an entire lecture's worth of material in a one paragraph explanation.... So because we are taking little amounts of material and dragging them out.....this class feels like and E T E R N I T Y and it's only fifty minutes... but the best part of this class is that I get to sit next to one of my very bestest friends from ballroom, her name is Annie, and she is one of my favorite people. I feel like we're not very close, and I'm not sure what she really thinks about me....but overall we have a good laugh and enjoy each other's company....so I'm just gonna stick with that for now.
I'm T.A.-ing social dance as part of a large attempt to earn brownie points in ballroom...and I really really love it :) I'll admit that originally it was all about stacking politics, but then.... sigh, I wanted to be a professional dancer growing up and the "plan" after I retired was to open a dance studio and teach young people how to dance! That dream obviously is out of the question now, but still, being able to teach ballroom, even as a TA on a really small scale, is like fulfilling a part of a dream that will never be realized....
So my secret in all of this is that I'm TA-ing just because I love it.... shhhh ;)
So I have an hour between social dance (TA-ing) and my chemistry class, and in this hour, I was determined to go to the bookstore and NOT LEAVE until I had everything I needed. Major complaint of the day...the vast majority of the people working at the bookstore are completely incompetent! No one knows where anything is, no one can really answer any questions, and they all just tell you to go ask, "Jane" or whoever....and you never get the materials you need. k, My anatomy lecture class has 200 students, just in my section, and there are four sections.... do the math. The professor requires this lecture outline that containes all of the notes, handouts, study guides and misc class materials for every student....the bookstore decided that they only wanted to print 100 of these....TOTAL..... so while the bookstore keeps having to order re-prints the unlucky students who weren't at the doors when the original 100 copies came of the printer were left unprepared for class, and with a very angry and uncooperative professor.....
How about a little foresight bookstore???!!! You can see how many people are registered for that class....you know that they all are required to have the lecture outline....why don't you just save everyone the trouble and print out the 400 copies neccessary....
Another gripe...my chemistry professor uses this computer program for homework, which is cool, I don't mind, it makes our homework really easy to keep track of for both the student and the professor, win-win. Oh but at the bookstore....it's like some kind of Urban Legend....no one knows what this "mysterious" software is all about.... people look at you like you're crazy, like you've just confessed to a big-foot sighting..... and these people probably aren't even Santa believers!! It's ridiculous.
I finally found someone who knew about the software and told me that for the convenient price of my first born child, she would get me the program that I needed....sigh.....
By this point in time, I'm ten minutes away from Chemistry, and was still on the opposite side of campus. Oh Alycia's major mistake #1 Wearing new, cute shoes, on the day that requires the most walking..... bad bad plan.... So I also have massive blisters on my heels. What a day.
Chemistry goes by super boring....but during class this guy named Akeem texted me....(backround knowledge, Akeem is a beautiful black man that plays on the football team and asked me for my number....so now we are friends :) ) Anyways, apparently in my haste to get to Physiology this morning, I totally walked RIGHT PAST HIM and didn't even acknowledge his presence. 10 jerk points for me! I apologized and really couldn't figure out how I didn't manage to see him....considering that my school is....90% caucasian,....he kinda stands out.... And NO that is NOT rascist to say that....
Okay, so well all remember Adam? My ex-boyfriend of eight months? Who none of my friends or family like?....Anyways...in the past I've managed to keep a really good relationship with all of the guys that I've dated, seriously all of my exes, or even interest-exes and I are friends...which I really enjoy because it eliminates the possibility of crazy ex-boyfriends hating your guts and trying to make your life miserable....
Adam and I cross paths inbetween our classes.... He's going from accounting to marketing, and I'm heading from Chemistry to Anatomy.... the most direct route for both of us makes us cross paths at the exact same time every Monday, Wednesday and Friday.... Today when I saw him, he was talking to Annie, (which is great cuz we're all friends...) and he's nice to me, but as soon as we start walking away from Annie, get's totally cold, and weird and treats me like he really doesn't know me....
You know that tone of voice people use when, they don't really want to talk to you, or they don't really like you....but talk to you anyways? And the entire time they are using that voice you feel like more of a leech than a person? ya. that voice. THAT my friends was the was he was speaking to me.... whether or not he noticed that he was talking that way...I don't really know....but it was enough to make me mad/feel low all in one fail swoop.
Anatomy was complex as ever....there is SO MUCH MATERIAL. Everyone said, "Oh my gosh Alycia, there is so much material in that class, you're gonna drown yourself in terminology!" And I thought they were being melodramatic....but now I can see that they didn't drive the point home enough....
When I sit down to study this material, I literally take ten minutes just to figure out where to start.... You have to use every method of study for these kinds of classes... flashcards only work for terminology and definitions, but you need diagrams for some things, written out explanations for others and sometimes you have to use all three just to get the concept across... its intense....and it's only the beginning of week two.
After having the remaining part of my mind blown by Anatomy, I went over to the Institure to figure out THAT separate class schedule, and finally got that sorted too...
I feel like I'm living several different lives..... It's like multiple personality disorder......
Life #1 Classes, Homework and the friends I have in those classes. Being a dedicated student, a bookworm and a study buddy.
Life #2 Ballroom: Here I'm a performer, the center of attention, constantly surrounded by people and music and laughter. I become this hyper-confident girl who is strong and graceful and talented and beautiful.
Life #3 The planned life: The parts of my life that revolve completely around things that haven't happened. Like always worrying about getting into nursing school and scholarships, and when I'm getting married and all sorts of future things. This life is entirely hypothetical.... I find myself saying things like, "If this....When this happens.....During this time in my life....."
Life #4 The Six Chicks. The six girls that I lived with last year who all became one entity. In this group I'm the street smart one who always has a story to tell.... I'm the most "ME" when I'm with these girls, we all just love to hang back and laugh about how stressed out we let ourselves get. But along with all the good, there can be so much drama with six chicks.
Life #5 My Home-home life: My family, friends and everything else that is still in my hometown..... things I am trying to keep up with, but seem to have very limited time for. Things that I feel I'm missing out on....but can't do anything about.
Life #6 The Spiritual me: The girl at church, in institute and staying up late reading scriptures just to feel some peace....The one who needs God's powerful influence in her life, and is doing her very best, and wants to make him proud.
Life #7 The Woman in me: Believe it or not....there is this MAJOR part of me that just wants to get married, have a family, decorate a house and be on the PTA at my kid's elementary.... All of the other things in my life become meaningless when compared to how much I want to have a family, and be a wife and mother. This part of me gets super impatient with being single, and wants to adopt/kidnap every child she sees....this part is also having a difficult time fighting all of these "maternal instincts"
So there I am in a multicolored nutshell.... I feel divided between all of these things. Together they are all parts of the life I'm trying to create for myself, but they don't blend well.... and I don't want to have to choose between them. How do you pick parts of yourself to throw away? That's even worse then picking a favorite child! lol Sigh....so we will leave my very mixed up thought processes for another day....
So there's my day so far.... what happened, and what I think about it all.....
Tonight's plans:
- Finish Anatomy Homework
- Make Dinner, partake of said dinner
- Go to Family Home Evening at my student ward....scope out the man-scene there....
- Work on Cha Cha technique with Teresa and assorted ballroom comrades
Von voyage!
