Hello everyone out there in blogging world! It has been a rather long time since I've graced you with my cyber blogging presence so I decided now would be as good a time as any to write the first of many updates to come for this year. And it allows me to catch all of you lovelies up on what's new, what's not and what's going on in Alycia's life.
People say, "Oh Alycia is so self-centered that she has to talk about herself online...." But the point of this blog is so people that want to know what's going on with me can. If you don't wanna hear me talk about my life....then why would you read my blog? That's right, you ponder that.
School:
I am taking a much needed semester off and then am contuining to work my way towards nursing school at Westminster. So I'm not at SUU which leads to the next part....
Living with the Parental Units:
While it may not be trendy or fiercely independent to move back in with your parents after living on your own- it sure is economically savvy. As in NO RENT. And even though curfews, having to participate in tons of "family bonding" (which I'm certain makes us more frustrated with each other...) and having to smell the hormonal and nauseating aroma of teen boy are all not my cup of tea- cushioning my savings account is right on the money. Pun most definitely intended. And since I'm not paying rent it allows me to save the majority of the money I make from....
My Jobs:
Currently I have 3. But it's more like 2 1/2... I work a regular 9-5 job as an administrative assistant which pays nicely and I ADORE the other assistant I work with which is always nice....downside- it's a bit of a commute.....but I'm over it. I also nanny part time and am a brand new product consultant with doTERRA. I am LOVING the essential oils and have weaned off of the boatloads of prescription meds that I was taking daily before. I feel so much better- almost like my body is happier without all that crap in it. Plus not having to take 16 pills a day is nothing short of lovely. So I've started a little savings fund that will continue to grow over time.
Dance:
A topic that still pains me....no longer part of the ballroom team, and not enrolled in classes....but there is a studio up in Salt Lake that I want to start up with that is all Latin all the time. Which makes my Latina soul smile :) ay ay!
El Amor de mi Vida:
Still very VERY happily dating James. October 4th was our 6th month dating anniversary (ahhhh.....) And it amazes me how every day with him still seems to get better and better. He's still living in Cedar, with his family in an effort to save money so we've been long distance since August- and I won't lie to you, at first it was really hard for me to adjust. I'm used to being the doting girlfriend with the guy who is never more than a short drive away. And after having him 5 minutes from me all summer....it used to get really annoying to not be able to run over to his house when I needed something or just wanted to see him. We've worked it out where we get to see each other twice a month, and I've gotten comfortable with it. The only thing that kills me is when one of us has had a really bad day, and I can't hug James. It will be really nice when we just get to come home to each other- I am so looking forward to marrying him. And before all of you start panicking, no we're not engaged yet, and no you did not miss any epic proposal stories. Please allow your heart and breathing rates to return to normal.
My Family:
I'm enjoying the quality time that I do get to spend with my family. My brother Jackson is the sweetest boy ever! Whenever I've had a bad day, need a good laugh or even a TV watching buddy- he's always got my back. Jaime and I have actually gotten to spend some time together- and I feel like I'm getting to know her for the first time...the real her, the person she's growing into and it's beautiful and inspiring to watch her come into her own; and then it makes me wonder if I'm already that person? Or if we are constantly inching closer to the kind of person we ultimately want to become?
It's been good to be around my mom again, she has a gift for being able to change any mood. Now that can also work in a negative way....but generally she helps me to calm down and feel more optimistic.
My dad lost his job two months ago and is still out of work, he is my enrolling consultant for doTERRA, but doTERRA is a business that you build over time- not instant money. The company he worked for still hasn't paid him his bonus or for the last paycheck he earned- but the bottom line is that the sooner he can find work the better.
Life in general:Everything has been distance for me. All of my very best friends are still at SUU, and so I haven't seen them in months- Lizzy is awesome about making sure that we keep up with each other's lives and we talk on the phone several times a week in an effort to stay current. :) That girl is the electricity behind the light of my life, I'm so grateful for her.
I feel so distanced from some things and then surrounded by others- my life doesn't feel like it's spiraling out of control...but I do sense the imbalance, like I'm choosing to ignore certain areas of my life. In an effort to reclaim some of the things I've temporarily abandoned- I've started reading again, like really really reading to get some mental stimulation going- it's nice to have time off from schoolwork....but every now and again, I miss the challenge and being able to conquer new material. I also make sure that I dance a few times a week. Even if it's just jamming out to music in my room- it keeps me centered to stay moving. James and I talk on the phone every night and are reading the book of mormon together- we're almost done with 2 Nephi now :)
Overall life is good, a little lonely at times- but never lacking in fullness. I hope this post finds you all in good spirits, healthy and happy. The book I'm reading right now inspires me so much, but there is a particular quote that I feel ties together both this post and the tone of many of our lives,
"Try not to resist the changes that come your way. Instead let life live through you.
And do not worry that your life is turning upside down.
How do you know that the side you are used to is better than the one to come?"
Until next time,
Bon Voyage
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Don't you DARE put me on hold...
Step one: I don't like to be put on hold....it's not about the fact that I'm not very patient...but if I've called you it's because I need an answer or help with something right then-
Step two: what could you possibly be doing that takes 35 minutes....if you're gonna put me on hold for longer than 2 then PLEASE just call me back when you have the two minutes it will take to answer my questions.
Step 3: HOLD MUSIC. Atrocity. It needs to be illegal, and in fact maybe it is in some corners of the world. I think I might be arrested somewhere for even saying the words "Hold" and "Music" together.... It's either really horrid 80's era music that would have NEVER made it onto the radio during or after the 80's, renaissance fair music gone terribly wrong or smooth jazz that doesn't really have a melody beat or any other musical qualities. All of which can either be played abnoxiously loud or both fuzzy and deafeningly loud.
Putting me on hold + hold music = a near death experience....for whoever is responsible for this nonsense.
NOT A FAN.
Step two: what could you possibly be doing that takes 35 minutes....if you're gonna put me on hold for longer than 2 then PLEASE just call me back when you have the two minutes it will take to answer my questions.
Step 3: HOLD MUSIC. Atrocity. It needs to be illegal, and in fact maybe it is in some corners of the world. I think I might be arrested somewhere for even saying the words "Hold" and "Music" together.... It's either really horrid 80's era music that would have NEVER made it onto the radio during or after the 80's, renaissance fair music gone terribly wrong or smooth jazz that doesn't really have a melody beat or any other musical qualities. All of which can either be played abnoxiously loud or both fuzzy and deafeningly loud.
Putting me on hold + hold music = a near death experience....for whoever is responsible for this nonsense.
NOT A FAN.
Friday, April 23, 2010
Not even attempting to catch up....but here we go.
It's been months since my last blog entry and so much has happened/changed in my life. I will not being to attempt to catch you up on everything but consider this blog one continuous list of highlights.
SCHOOL:
Classes have kicked my trash this semester....my chemistry class, although at times enjoyable, is the hardest class I have ever ever ever ever ever EVER EVER EVER been forced to enroll in. Pathophysiology has been entirely fascinating and is my favorite class of all time :) I have worked my asset off for each grade in every class and even if (when) I don't end up with a 4.0, I can still be proud of the work that I put forward.
Finals are next week and just printing out my study guides was enough to send me into an anxiety induced coma....but I just have to trust in my ability to understand and remember the material and then just go for it! the worst thing that could happen, is me having to re-take a class...so I feel confident for the coming finals week no matter how things end.
Big News: I'm transferring to Dixie this fall because I can get into their Nursing program in Spring of 2011, meaning that I can continue slowly moving forward towards my career of choice. I will be there for at least three years...but I'm not in any rush to get my degree so- it'll be good. Also, Dixie is in a bigger city, has more connections, NO SNOW, beautiful weather, better food and cooler people. Decision well made.
BALLROOM:
Went on plenty of tours with Ballroom, places like Moab, Monticello, Salt Lake to perform at a Jazz game halftime show, Las Vegas, Pahrump Nevada, Arizona......And in the monthg of May we are traveling to Puerto Rico!!!! I am very excited about going to Puerto Rico...and so is my SPF 95 sunscreen that I will be reapplying every fifteen minutes for fear of becoming a walking melanoma.
Concert weekend was so much fun and I just wanted to say thank you to all of the people who came to see the company and the team perform. Your support means more to me than I could ever express! It was officially announced concert weekend that the company director was leaving the school (Due to a bunch of bullsh*t administration drama and him ultimately ending up fired) but anyways, the silver lining is that Dixie is giving him everything to start an amazing company down there....and yours truly is going with him courtesy of a dance scholarship. James and I are going to be the new "Anne and Jose" and I am so excited to be pushed, trained, and tough loved into being the best ballroom dancer that I can possibly be. I am basically going to OWN that campus haha. Or at least that's the goal as of right now.
RELATIONSHIPS:
So...this one is a big deal....Alycia has a boyfriend. His name is James, and he HANDS DOWN the best guy I have ever dated. We've been on the same ballroom company since I joined my first year at SUU, and became friends when I made tour team last fall....we were getting to be even better friends when kinda out of no where I realized that I had feelings for him-and out of that same nowhere category James became interested in me.....There are so many really great moments with James already and I wish that I could share them all, but let me just say this...
This is what Lizzy refers to as the "Blush and Gush" and although she has been hearing about James non-stop, I haven't gushed to all of you yet...so I am going to take this opportunity to do so.
There are parts of me that I never knew I wanted to match up with someone else....that he is compatible with. He is goofy, nerdy, quirky and at the same time strong, confident and driven. There are some times that I think he is me, in man form. We are always laughing and when there is an issue that we disagree on, we can talk about it without either person getting upset. He is a talented athlete and dancer and his determination in all areas of his life is an inspiration to me. He makes me want to be a better person without ever pushing me to be someone that I'm not. I feel closer to him in weeks than I have felt with other people in years.
As crazy as it sounds, it feels like I've been with him always....
Before you all start gagging....subject angle changed...
my mom is already itching to plan a wedding and has even thrown out the idea that we should just start planning everything and inform James later haha. We've met each others families and everyone likes the respective person in the relationship...so far it is going amazingly well and I can't wait to spend even more time getting to know him :) Love him? YES. Expected to feel this way-especially this soon? No. Am I happy about it? Deliriously.
FRIENDS:
To be completely honest I haven't been able to spend as much time as I would've liked with my friends because of ballroom/school/boyfriend and all of the other girls having just as crazy schedules as me. Some fun things we've done...
RANDOM:
So this one time....I dyed my hair blonde.....and although it was fun to have such a drastic change, it didn't feel like me. So just yesterday I brought the red back...and it feels SO GOOD. haha I believe that every woman should drastically change their hair at some point in their lives....but just for the record....BLONDES DON'T HAVE MORE FUN.
PLANS:
This summer I'm staying in Cedar, working and dance training until I move down to Dixie, and I'm living with some of my best ballroom girls Ariel and Rebecka :)
This weekend, as in leaving in thiry minutes, the team is traveling up to Idaho to perform in Jesse's hometown! We're spending tonight in Salt Lake and all of the team chicas are staying at my house, so I'll get to see my family!!!! I'm so excited!
Keep James for as long as humanly possible!
Ace my Finals!
Blog more often ;) wink wink wink.
I hope that everyone has been doing well and that life isn't treating you too harshly. Know that there is a crazy redhead who loves you and wants the very best for you. I LOVE YOU
Until next time,
Bon Voyage.
SCHOOL:
Classes have kicked my trash this semester....my chemistry class, although at times enjoyable, is the hardest class I have ever ever ever ever ever EVER EVER EVER been forced to enroll in. Pathophysiology has been entirely fascinating and is my favorite class of all time :) I have worked my asset off for each grade in every class and even if (when) I don't end up with a 4.0, I can still be proud of the work that I put forward.
Finals are next week and just printing out my study guides was enough to send me into an anxiety induced coma....but I just have to trust in my ability to understand and remember the material and then just go for it! the worst thing that could happen, is me having to re-take a class...so I feel confident for the coming finals week no matter how things end.
Big News: I'm transferring to Dixie this fall because I can get into their Nursing program in Spring of 2011, meaning that I can continue slowly moving forward towards my career of choice. I will be there for at least three years...but I'm not in any rush to get my degree so- it'll be good. Also, Dixie is in a bigger city, has more connections, NO SNOW, beautiful weather, better food and cooler people. Decision well made.
BALLROOM:
Went on plenty of tours with Ballroom, places like Moab, Monticello, Salt Lake to perform at a Jazz game halftime show, Las Vegas, Pahrump Nevada, Arizona......And in the monthg of May we are traveling to Puerto Rico!!!! I am very excited about going to Puerto Rico...and so is my SPF 95 sunscreen that I will be reapplying every fifteen minutes for fear of becoming a walking melanoma.
Concert weekend was so much fun and I just wanted to say thank you to all of the people who came to see the company and the team perform. Your support means more to me than I could ever express! It was officially announced concert weekend that the company director was leaving the school (Due to a bunch of bullsh*t administration drama and him ultimately ending up fired) but anyways, the silver lining is that Dixie is giving him everything to start an amazing company down there....and yours truly is going with him courtesy of a dance scholarship. James and I are going to be the new "Anne and Jose" and I am so excited to be pushed, trained, and tough loved into being the best ballroom dancer that I can possibly be. I am basically going to OWN that campus haha. Or at least that's the goal as of right now.
RELATIONSHIPS:
So...this one is a big deal....Alycia has a boyfriend. His name is James, and he HANDS DOWN the best guy I have ever dated. We've been on the same ballroom company since I joined my first year at SUU, and became friends when I made tour team last fall....we were getting to be even better friends when kinda out of no where I realized that I had feelings for him-and out of that same nowhere category James became interested in me.....There are so many really great moments with James already and I wish that I could share them all, but let me just say this...
This is what Lizzy refers to as the "Blush and Gush" and although she has been hearing about James non-stop, I haven't gushed to all of you yet...so I am going to take this opportunity to do so.
There are parts of me that I never knew I wanted to match up with someone else....that he is compatible with. He is goofy, nerdy, quirky and at the same time strong, confident and driven. There are some times that I think he is me, in man form. We are always laughing and when there is an issue that we disagree on, we can talk about it without either person getting upset. He is a talented athlete and dancer and his determination in all areas of his life is an inspiration to me. He makes me want to be a better person without ever pushing me to be someone that I'm not. I feel closer to him in weeks than I have felt with other people in years.
As crazy as it sounds, it feels like I've been with him always....
Before you all start gagging....subject angle changed...
my mom is already itching to plan a wedding and has even thrown out the idea that we should just start planning everything and inform James later haha. We've met each others families and everyone likes the respective person in the relationship...so far it is going amazingly well and I can't wait to spend even more time getting to know him :) Love him? YES. Expected to feel this way-especially this soon? No. Am I happy about it? Deliriously.
FRIENDS:
To be completely honest I haven't been able to spend as much time as I would've liked with my friends because of ballroom/school/boyfriend and all of the other girls having just as crazy schedules as me. Some fun things we've done...
- A surprise murder mystery birthday party for Brenna :) I've never had to lie so much in my life haha but we all pulled it off nicely!
- Being able to attend Lizzy's many amazing music performances, including choir concerts, operas and musical reviews.
- X-files night!!! Finally some time with Mulder
- Lots of last minute late night get togethers which turned into more of a much needed group therapy session than anything else.
RANDOM:
So this one time....I dyed my hair blonde.....and although it was fun to have such a drastic change, it didn't feel like me. So just yesterday I brought the red back...and it feels SO GOOD. haha I believe that every woman should drastically change their hair at some point in their lives....but just for the record....BLONDES DON'T HAVE MORE FUN.
PLANS:
This summer I'm staying in Cedar, working and dance training until I move down to Dixie, and I'm living with some of my best ballroom girls Ariel and Rebecka :)
This weekend, as in leaving in thiry minutes, the team is traveling up to Idaho to perform in Jesse's hometown! We're spending tonight in Salt Lake and all of the team chicas are staying at my house, so I'll get to see my family!!!! I'm so excited!
Keep James for as long as humanly possible!
Ace my Finals!
Blog more often ;) wink wink wink.
I hope that everyone has been doing well and that life isn't treating you too harshly. Know that there is a crazy redhead who loves you and wants the very best for you. I LOVE YOU
Until next time,
Bon Voyage.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Dropping in
I have been insanely INSANELY busy since the last time I posted....
And honestly I don't even have the time to blog at this very moment...
But we will get together sometime in the future and I will tell ya'll everything :)
Bon voyage!
And honestly I don't even have the time to blog at this very moment...
But we will get together sometime in the future and I will tell ya'll everything :)
Bon voyage!
Friday, January 22, 2010
A Little Bit of Everything....
So I'm not sure if anyone still reads this....but I like to write anyways. :) Let's Begin
Follow up from last time-
My alien invaded face is improving, but at a slow enough rate that my self-esteem is suffering... I feel like when people look at me they are thinking, "Ah, you know that girl has potential to be attractive....but wait what the hello is going on with her face....she should get that checked out....." then there's the next part of me that reprimands myself for thinking that even strangers' lives are revolving around my insecurity....but *sigh* I want my skin to grow up with me....come on now. Am I asking for THAT much.?...
Classes:
I LOVE my organic chemistry class....people think I'm crazy...but chemistry is actually starting to make sense to me. And I love when I can understand the subject matter to the point where I feel comfortable teaching other people how to get through the homework. Pathophysiology is interesting :) we're learning about the immune system right now, and it's almost turning me against taking drugs of any kind.... for example. When you get sick, your body gives you a fever ON PURPOSE so that it can kill the bacteria in your body.... like the pansies that we are, we take medication to make the fever go away, but then we still have all of this bacteria thriving in our bodies and we get prescribed an antibiotic to kill the bacteria... and then if the drug has any side effects then we have to take something else entirely....all of this we could have avoided if we would have just put up with the fever for a couple of days. Granted- there are times when our bodies aren't strong enough to fight off major infections and need the extra boost of medications....but you'd be much better off not messing with things in the first place.
Ballroom
Ballroom auditions were relatively uneventful...it's actually really nice to know that you have a guaranteed spot on the tour team and not have to worry about competition or anything else really. My friend Annie was moved up to tour team, and even though I love her dearly...it's strange to see her on team lol. Just because I'm not used to it yet, and had become so accustomed to the dynamic last semester....and then I wonder what the people who have been on tour team for years feel like- because the team changes every single semester....hmm.....
The Retreat
Last weekend was the BDC (Ballroom dance company) retreat up to the university's cabin. Good times. I had so much fun last year and knew that I wanted to go again this time. STUPID IDEA. I don't think that my ballroom director is the brightest man around sometimes....when it comes to dance/choreography/such then he's great but in the dancer-common sense department....kinda slow. At the retreat they always play these highly physical games with a high chance of injury risks.... last year I broke my thumb while enagaging in just these sorts of games. So this year I opted to sit on the sidelines.....Gah, I don't know WHY he wants us to play these games....do you really want a bunch of your dancers injured?!?! One of the girls ended up falling and hitting the back of her head on a chair- Alycia playing nurse immediately starts checking for signs of a concussion...and sure enough- she has every single one on the checklist....not to mention that by this point she's already in shock and going into random convulsions. So me, Colby and Becka leave the retreat to take this girl to the emergency room and spend the next four hours waiting for doctors, swearing under our breath, and getting cat scans of Melissa's brain.....
Complaints of the night....in no particular order....
In other much brighter hospital news, my new assignment for this semester is....drum-roll please....working in the Operating Room!!!! Oh I'm so excited!!!! : D : D : D I haven't started yet, but you'd better believe that I will have some great stories for you.
Classic Alycia Moves....
This is the part of the blog where I share my latest most embarassing moments....which happen often as evidenced by this blog being plagued by them...
< Underneath it All >
Okay, so Thursday morning, I wake up, dance for two hours and then I have a two hour break before my first class....there are some days that I spend time getting ready, make myself a nice breakfast and saunter to class....and then other days (the majority) that I go back to bed for another hour and a half and attend class looking like some kind of sea creature....
Thursday was a sleep-sea creature kind of morning.... after chemistry I have an hour between classes and I decided that I HAD TO shower because even I was grossed out at my current lack of hygiene. So I run home, dump all of my stuff in the front room and do a sprint/strip on my way upstairs......
It isn't until I get out of the shower that I remember that my robe is in the washing machine....and still soaking wet.....okay, no big deal...I'll just wrap up in this little towel and scamper to my room....
I then discover that in my haste I've locked myself out of my room......in a towel. Now when I say towel- that's being generous.....we're talking mid bustal region....to high-high thigh..... the next conclusion is that my keys are downstairs...so I go downstairs to get them....and my roommate is standing in the kitchen making lunch with three of her rather attractive male friends....AWKWARD.
One of the guys did try to dispel the awkward by saying,
Guy #1, "Wow, I feel like I should at least ask for your number first.....you're the ballroom dancer right?"
Alycia, "Yeah........"
Guy #2, "I can tell....."
We all laugh nervously..... I grabbed my keys and tried to gracefully ascend without flashing anyone haha.... oh it was a great morning.......
< Excellent Plan Alycia >
After friday's classes I hike to my car....I say hike because getting anywhere on this campus when there is snow feels like you're trekking Everest....honestly I keep resisting the urge I have to yell out "Sherpa!!!!"
I finally get back to my car and by this point in time, I'm sweating in a scarf, hoodie and feather down coat.... so I roll the windows down as I'm driving....it snowed several inches last night and has been continuing to do so off-and-on all day today. As I turned the corner, all of the snow that was on top of the car came in through the window and I literally white washed myself in my own car....hahahah As I sat there covered in snow all I could do was laugh and imagine the absolute hilarity of someone else watching this happen hahahaha. Who does that? I do.
The Masquerade Ball
Tomorrow the BDC is hosting a formal masquerade ball...and I'm SO EXCITED to be going!!!! Although it should be pretty interesting, because everyone is going....including all of the people that have caused/been part of so much ballroom drama from last year....everything from ex-boyfriends, ex-bestfriends, to the random newly vindictive hook-ups, friends with unrequited love, all of the ballroom teams, and then all of the strangers who get to witness this train wreck. I feel like we're creating our own twisted episode of Days of Our Lives.....except for with the amount of violence and drama I'm expecting....it may be more CSI than soap network.... and with masks more like Saw.....again, I'm looking forward to having more stories to share :)
I hope that this blog makes you laugh....feel better....or at least entertains you for however long it takes you to read it.
Love you all!!!!
Until next time,
Bon Voyage
Follow up from last time-
My alien invaded face is improving, but at a slow enough rate that my self-esteem is suffering... I feel like when people look at me they are thinking, "Ah, you know that girl has potential to be attractive....but wait what the hello is going on with her face....she should get that checked out....." then there's the next part of me that reprimands myself for thinking that even strangers' lives are revolving around my insecurity....but *sigh* I want my skin to grow up with me....come on now. Am I asking for THAT much.?...
Classes:
I LOVE my organic chemistry class....people think I'm crazy...but chemistry is actually starting to make sense to me. And I love when I can understand the subject matter to the point where I feel comfortable teaching other people how to get through the homework. Pathophysiology is interesting :) we're learning about the immune system right now, and it's almost turning me against taking drugs of any kind.... for example. When you get sick, your body gives you a fever ON PURPOSE so that it can kill the bacteria in your body.... like the pansies that we are, we take medication to make the fever go away, but then we still have all of this bacteria thriving in our bodies and we get prescribed an antibiotic to kill the bacteria... and then if the drug has any side effects then we have to take something else entirely....all of this we could have avoided if we would have just put up with the fever for a couple of days. Granted- there are times when our bodies aren't strong enough to fight off major infections and need the extra boost of medications....but you'd be much better off not messing with things in the first place.
Ballroom
Ballroom auditions were relatively uneventful...it's actually really nice to know that you have a guaranteed spot on the tour team and not have to worry about competition or anything else really. My friend Annie was moved up to tour team, and even though I love her dearly...it's strange to see her on team lol. Just because I'm not used to it yet, and had become so accustomed to the dynamic last semester....and then I wonder what the people who have been on tour team for years feel like- because the team changes every single semester....hmm.....
The Retreat
Last weekend was the BDC (Ballroom dance company) retreat up to the university's cabin. Good times. I had so much fun last year and knew that I wanted to go again this time. STUPID IDEA. I don't think that my ballroom director is the brightest man around sometimes....when it comes to dance/choreography/such then he's great but in the dancer-common sense department....kinda slow. At the retreat they always play these highly physical games with a high chance of injury risks.... last year I broke my thumb while enagaging in just these sorts of games. So this year I opted to sit on the sidelines.....Gah, I don't know WHY he wants us to play these games....do you really want a bunch of your dancers injured?!?! One of the girls ended up falling and hitting the back of her head on a chair- Alycia playing nurse immediately starts checking for signs of a concussion...and sure enough- she has every single one on the checklist....not to mention that by this point she's already in shock and going into random convulsions. So me, Colby and Becka leave the retreat to take this girl to the emergency room and spend the next four hours waiting for doctors, swearing under our breath, and getting cat scans of Melissa's brain.....
Complaints of the night....in no particular order....
- That Mark insists on playing games which end up in injury....
- The none of the directors even went with three of the students to take one of their "prized dancers" to the emergency room after they were partially responsible for her injury....and then didn't use the dance company's insurance to pay for all of the scans-which are NOT CHEAP my friends.
- That it took us literally and hour and 45 minutes once reaching the hospital to see a doctor....if she would have had internal bleeding or hemorraging....she could have DIED in that amount of time.... WTF emergency room.... HEAD INJURIES TAKE PRECEDENCE OVER EVERYTHING ELSE SHORT OF SEVERE BLEEDING, HEART ATTACKS, STROKE AND CODE BLUE. For the love of the almighty....don't make me run your emergency room for you.
- the fact that once the three of us had made sure that Melissa was safe and had returned to the retreat.... NOTHING was said to us....no "Hey thanks for making sure we didn't just kill one of our students" or "We appreciate that you would take your time, energy and money to do OUR jobs for us."
In other much brighter hospital news, my new assignment for this semester is....drum-roll please....working in the Operating Room!!!! Oh I'm so excited!!!! : D : D : D I haven't started yet, but you'd better believe that I will have some great stories for you.
Classic Alycia Moves....
This is the part of the blog where I share my latest most embarassing moments....which happen often as evidenced by this blog being plagued by them...
< Underneath it All >
Okay, so Thursday morning, I wake up, dance for two hours and then I have a two hour break before my first class....there are some days that I spend time getting ready, make myself a nice breakfast and saunter to class....and then other days (the majority) that I go back to bed for another hour and a half and attend class looking like some kind of sea creature....
Thursday was a sleep-sea creature kind of morning.... after chemistry I have an hour between classes and I decided that I HAD TO shower because even I was grossed out at my current lack of hygiene. So I run home, dump all of my stuff in the front room and do a sprint/strip on my way upstairs......
It isn't until I get out of the shower that I remember that my robe is in the washing machine....and still soaking wet.....okay, no big deal...I'll just wrap up in this little towel and scamper to my room....
I then discover that in my haste I've locked myself out of my room......in a towel. Now when I say towel- that's being generous.....we're talking mid bustal region....to high-high thigh..... the next conclusion is that my keys are downstairs...so I go downstairs to get them....and my roommate is standing in the kitchen making lunch with three of her rather attractive male friends....AWKWARD.
One of the guys did try to dispel the awkward by saying,
Guy #1, "Wow, I feel like I should at least ask for your number first.....you're the ballroom dancer right?"
Alycia, "Yeah........"
Guy #2, "I can tell....."
We all laugh nervously..... I grabbed my keys and tried to gracefully ascend without flashing anyone haha.... oh it was a great morning.......
< Excellent Plan Alycia >
After friday's classes I hike to my car....I say hike because getting anywhere on this campus when there is snow feels like you're trekking Everest....honestly I keep resisting the urge I have to yell out "Sherpa!!!!"
I finally get back to my car and by this point in time, I'm sweating in a scarf, hoodie and feather down coat.... so I roll the windows down as I'm driving....it snowed several inches last night and has been continuing to do so off-and-on all day today. As I turned the corner, all of the snow that was on top of the car came in through the window and I literally white washed myself in my own car....hahahah As I sat there covered in snow all I could do was laugh and imagine the absolute hilarity of someone else watching this happen hahahaha. Who does that? I do.
The Masquerade Ball
Tomorrow the BDC is hosting a formal masquerade ball...and I'm SO EXCITED to be going!!!! Although it should be pretty interesting, because everyone is going....including all of the people that have caused/been part of so much ballroom drama from last year....everything from ex-boyfriends, ex-bestfriends, to the random newly vindictive hook-ups, friends with unrequited love, all of the ballroom teams, and then all of the strangers who get to witness this train wreck. I feel like we're creating our own twisted episode of Days of Our Lives.....except for with the amount of violence and drama I'm expecting....it may be more CSI than soap network.... and with masks more like Saw.....again, I'm looking forward to having more stories to share :)
I hope that this blog makes you laugh....feel better....or at least entertains you for however long it takes you to read it.
Love you all!!!!
Until next time,
Bon Voyage
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Back in the Action!
Hello World! I'm sorry that I haven't been able to write. After Thanksgiving, finals needed all of my attention and thereby the blog received none. I hope that you all aren't feeling too abandoned!
So.... Spring Semester started this week and although it's only the second day, I'm already excited for everything to get going and for my life to reach it's usual stage of stress/mayhem/time crunches. I have a couple of highlights for you right now and then I'll write again next week once I have racked up a bunch of stories for you!
A FIRST DAY TO REMEMBER-
The Skin I'm In- Okay, let's be honest....Alycia has really ridiculously difficult skin. The Kicker- it was more manageable when I was in the teens; now that I've graduated to the "adult" category and all of the hormone changes that go with it...my skin kinda rebelled....I feel like my skin has, "Peter Pan syndrome," meaning it never wants to grow up. I've been dealing with moderate acne issues for a while and although you may never be able to tell (thanks to my makeup prowess) once the illusion fades- not a pretty situation.
Over the Winter break my skin was getting worse...and worse....and then when I thought it couldn't get worse- oh lanta it DID. So at my wits end I made an appointment with the Dermatologist back in Cedar.
Bright and early Monday morning I sally forth to yonder skin professional-hoping for an immediate cure. Turns out Alycia has a bacterial infection, on her face. Meaning that this is way past acne.....bacteria are instead making my skin their own personal winter cabin. LOVELY.
Needless to say I was put on all kinds of antibiotics, topicals and such,....so we'll see how that turns out.
Shake and Bake- This one time, there was an earthquake right outside of Cedar.... it was SO COOL and scary and a 4.1 on the rictor scale. I was sitting on my bed chatting on facebook when there was this huge rumbling sound and everything shook for 7-ish seconds. My first instict was that someone had run their car right into the complex....it wasn't until I was driving to school that the radio confirmed the earthquake suspicion.
Classes- Of Course there's going to be at least a paragraph of blog dedicated to my college education! My Chemistry class is going to be awesome! I had this professor for chem lab last semester and I really enjoy the way that he teaches. Also my friend Annie is in my Chemistry class! So we'll get to endure an hour of that together every day for the rest of the semester..... Pathophysiology is going to be great...mostly due to the fact that it's the same professor who taught my Physiology class....who I happen to have a strange student-teacher crush on....basically he is beautiful. And I don't mind listening to him lecture...AT ALL. Too much information for the internet? Perhaps. But I don't mind sharing with the....5 people who may or may not actually read this....
Ballroom- rehearsals start up tomorrow morning and I'm so excited to be dancing again. :) Brace yourself for a paragraph of cliches. I can't explain it in words....but the closest thing- dancing is like therapy for me. Stress relief. Something that's just for me. It's like everything that I hold back, can't explain and all of the emotion that never gets expressed....somehow when I dance- it all sorts out. I can think clearly. I leave all of that anxiety on the floor. And when the dance shoes come off....it feels like they take the weight on my shoulders with them. People tell me that it's a distraction, but what they don't understand is that it centers me. It keeps me from letting the rest of my life overwhelm me.
Wow....now that WAS too much soul for the blog.... :)
Anyways- I'll be back next week to regale you with more stories. I hope that everyone is off to a great start in 2010, I love you all so much.
Until Next Time,
Bon Voyage.
So.... Spring Semester started this week and although it's only the second day, I'm already excited for everything to get going and for my life to reach it's usual stage of stress/mayhem/time crunches. I have a couple of highlights for you right now and then I'll write again next week once I have racked up a bunch of stories for you!
A FIRST DAY TO REMEMBER-
The Skin I'm In- Okay, let's be honest....Alycia has really ridiculously difficult skin. The Kicker- it was more manageable when I was in the teens; now that I've graduated to the "adult" category and all of the hormone changes that go with it...my skin kinda rebelled....I feel like my skin has, "Peter Pan syndrome," meaning it never wants to grow up. I've been dealing with moderate acne issues for a while and although you may never be able to tell (thanks to my makeup prowess) once the illusion fades- not a pretty situation.
Over the Winter break my skin was getting worse...and worse....and then when I thought it couldn't get worse- oh lanta it DID. So at my wits end I made an appointment with the Dermatologist back in Cedar.
Bright and early Monday morning I sally forth to yonder skin professional-hoping for an immediate cure. Turns out Alycia has a bacterial infection, on her face. Meaning that this is way past acne.....bacteria are instead making my skin their own personal winter cabin. LOVELY.
Needless to say I was put on all kinds of antibiotics, topicals and such,....so we'll see how that turns out.
Shake and Bake- This one time, there was an earthquake right outside of Cedar.... it was SO COOL and scary and a 4.1 on the rictor scale. I was sitting on my bed chatting on facebook when there was this huge rumbling sound and everything shook for 7-ish seconds. My first instict was that someone had run their car right into the complex....it wasn't until I was driving to school that the radio confirmed the earthquake suspicion.
Classes- Of Course there's going to be at least a paragraph of blog dedicated to my college education! My Chemistry class is going to be awesome! I had this professor for chem lab last semester and I really enjoy the way that he teaches. Also my friend Annie is in my Chemistry class! So we'll get to endure an hour of that together every day for the rest of the semester..... Pathophysiology is going to be great...mostly due to the fact that it's the same professor who taught my Physiology class....who I happen to have a strange student-teacher crush on....basically he is beautiful. And I don't mind listening to him lecture...AT ALL. Too much information for the internet? Perhaps. But I don't mind sharing with the....5 people who may or may not actually read this....
Ballroom- rehearsals start up tomorrow morning and I'm so excited to be dancing again. :) Brace yourself for a paragraph of cliches. I can't explain it in words....but the closest thing- dancing is like therapy for me. Stress relief. Something that's just for me. It's like everything that I hold back, can't explain and all of the emotion that never gets expressed....somehow when I dance- it all sorts out. I can think clearly. I leave all of that anxiety on the floor. And when the dance shoes come off....it feels like they take the weight on my shoulders with them. People tell me that it's a distraction, but what they don't understand is that it centers me. It keeps me from letting the rest of my life overwhelm me.
Wow....now that WAS too much soul for the blog.... :)
Anyways- I'll be back next week to regale you with more stories. I hope that everyone is off to a great start in 2010, I love you all so much.
Until Next Time,
Bon Voyage.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
After all this time.....
If you are just beginning this blog, I think it's only fair to warn you that this one is a novel.....so either come back when you have the time or print it out and take it with you lol. It's been WEEKS since the last blog and although I'm still just doing "highlights" there are quite a few from the past couple weeks.
Think wayyyyy back....we left off the last blog with me visiting my family for the harvest holiday, during that whirlwind of a weekend I ended up getting swine flu.....which is awesome because I was vaccinated against it.
Swine Flu:
Swine (formally H1N1) is like the regular flu, sinus infection, strep and mono all got together and made a baby. To tell you that I can't remember ever feeling that miserable would be a lie.....but I hope that I don't ever have to feel like that again! Or at least for a while. It takes you OUT. The best part is that I had to drive back to cedar with this lovely disease....super achy body, exhausted, coughing, nauseated, feverish miserable me....driving. For those of you who don't know. I HATE DRIVING DISTANCE. Seriously, anything that passes the 45 minute mark is pushing it. Road trips? I'd rather die. In fact please just pre-emptively execute me so that I don't have some kind of psychotic break during the "super-fun road trip" and endanger the lives of everyone around me. In order to get from cedar back to Salt Lake, I would rather wait an hour in the little airport, fly for 45 minutes and then have to wait another hour in SLC than drive. Granted it's not AS bad if someone else is driving, but none of my friends have cars, or at least cars/driving skills that I would trust to any lengthy driving.
Needless to say, I was out for the next week; sleeping 18 hours a day.....and that drive was one of the worst I have ever had to endure.
Midterms:
A word second only to "Finals" in the kind of anxiety it instantly creates. At this point I had missed an entire week of school, meaning that not only had I missed classes, but I didn't even have notes to study from. The problem with being a science or any "hard-core" major is that, if you miss class....you will have absolutely no idea what's going on. Such was the case with me. I did my very best to read the chapters, catch up on lab work and borrow notes from friends....but in the end I epicly failed my midterms. Some of them I didn't fail, but all of the scores were low enough to drop my class grade by an entire letter. Which means that I will now have to spend the rest of the semester acing EVERYTHING in order to fix those.....as if there's already not enough pressure on me to do well.....thanks swine flu. *sobbing sounds.....*
Ballroom:
You knew this section was coming. Don't act too surprised. Basically the past several weeks has been all about publicity for our upcoming show (it's this weekend!) and lots of little shows in an attempt to get the word out. Including but not limited to.....
After the performance at the Cedar City birthday party there was a huge party at Ariel's house for the entire company and it was so fun! It was really nice to see everyone outside of a rehearsal environment :)
True T-Bird Night
Funny/ridiculous story of this blog. Okay, so every year there is a school sponsored event/tradition called "True T-bird Night" where you kiss someone, on a full moon, at the stroke of midnight in front of this statue and then you are dubbed a true-suu-thunderbird. Kind-of ridiculous....but hey it's a tradition. I had no intentions of going until Lizzy invited me to go with her and Megan. One of the things on Lizzy's bucket list is to kiss a complete stranger....and true-t night provides the perfect opportunity for something like that. Basically this event is like the mardi-gras of kissing.....
Okay, so at TTB (sorry I'm already tired of writing it out lol) we were just kind of standing around and then all of the sudden the countdown to midnight begins.... 10.....9.......8.....Lizzy finds her stranger...and I am still standing there awkwardly when one of my best guy-friends on ballroom approaches me and says, "You and me Lycia".... and in my mind I think, "Why not?" this guy is nice, this kiss means NOTHING, and then I'll have taken part in this tradition. Yay college experiences.
So I end up kissing previously stated friend. And life moved on from there. Was it kinda weird the next day? And in ballroom after that? oh ya. Not even gonna hide. But we're such good friends...that both of us were just glad that we hadn't ended up kissing creepy people haha. It was our little secret. We knew that if anyone on ballroom ever ever ever EVER found out, it would cause some serious drama.... so we had a firm "no tell" policy, which was working out great UNTIL.....
The school newspaper had covered the event, and on the back page of the next week's edition was a picture..... and yours truly leaning in to kiss friend truly..... and all hello broke loose. Even now I can laugh and just think how completely ridiculous it all is....but man -there were some people that were not happy about it. Why they care so much? I have no idea. But I felt like a celebrity for a day....you know? When celebs have something personal that they didn't want anyone else to know about put all over the news? yup. Moral of the story, don't kiss people if you don't mean it....or at least make sure there aren't cameras to bear witness to such an exchange.
The Six Chicks:
Oh drama. So Brenna was getting into all of these spats over stupid things with the other girls and keeping things from them, which just led to her feeling bad about it.....basically an absurd lack of communication led to Brenna moving out of the apartment and into a different eccles unit. I think the entire thing is really stupid. Brenna started dating this guy and right as she was about to tell the girls, Megan expressed her disdain for said guy and so Brenna, not wanting to have this budding relationship kaboshed, decided not to tell them. Pulling off of history, I can't blame her. The Six Chicks never liked Adam (my boyfriend all last year) and it put a major strain on the six chick dynamic and on Adam and my relationship. I could never be around my boyfriend with my friends, and I really hated that. Brenna didn't want the same thing to happen to her....
And then there are the basic roommate things of not helping out around the apartment enough, and personality differences that led to head butting. Anyways, Brenna no longer lives there....and as of right now, it feels to me like she's being exiled because everyone is still so upset about this that no one has really moved on...... it's ridiculous.
Dating:
Yuck. Here's where I'm at. I want to either....
There is this crazy idea I heard of, where people date to get to know one another, to see if they're compatible. Where you're in a relationship for the sake of the relationship. A person that you care about who cares about you, and extended support system. With no pressures to immediately get married..... Maybe it's an "outside of Utah" perspective.... but even my marriage prep-class (LDS institute) says that time is your best friend. When I first started dating Adam, I thought I was going to marry him.....but after eight months we both realized that we weren't the best match. Can you imagine if I had done the "utah-wedding in three months" plan? I would have married him, and been stuck for time and all eternity to a man that I didn't even know, that I would've ended up hating.
I would really love to be in a relationship again, just for the companionship aspect. But if people can't figure that out than I'd rather just be alone. Heaven knows I'm busy enough already haha.
Just this semester I've been stood up, I've dated a man who was MARRIED.....ya didn't know about that, a guy that had a girlfriend and was just looking for his "other woman," been flirted with a ton by nice guys who never have the guts to actually ask me out, and have been avoiding my everpresent ex, while all trying to stay positive about the dating experience. Eff the dating experience. Forget the games. If you like me, then like me and do something about it. If you don't, then please just go away.
What I've learned: Buckle your seatbelts kids....this is heavy stuff.
On my last shift in OB, I watched a baby die. A pre-mature boy with underdeveloped lungs was delivered at 21 weeks (that's not even halfway) he tried to cry, to start breathing on his own, and his lungs collapsed. From there the baby went from respiratory arrest to cardiac arrest and died right in front of me....and there was nothing I could do. Harder than that, was watching his parents fall apart after witnessing the death of their new son. I literally had to excuse myself from the room to do "paperwork" so that I didn't break down with them.
I never understood the saying, "Life is fragile," until that exact moment. And watching their despair I wanted more than anything to give a part of my life so that they could have their son back.... they could have twenty years of mine....they could have it all.....but then I rememebered that we all die, and timing is never good for tragedy. I saw an amazing play at SUU recently called "Our town" and in the third act, the heroine is dead and watching over the world she barely left and she says, "Were we all that blind? We don't even take the time to really look at each other anymore, to see anything in our lives for what it is, until it's too late." This line hit me like a ton of bricks....and I realized that my life is just going through the motions.
I feel like everytime I try to do something "bucket-list" worthy or something that I'll remember and can talk to my children about......I get scolded because it's "not in line with what I should be doing." Let me ask you readers, when is the last time you took the time to actually live you life? The kind of living with the no regrets policy? The kind of life that makes you happy? That makes you, you? That separates your human experience from everyone elses?
Call me melodramatic (trust me it wouldn't be the first time) but I'm talking stargazing, roasting marshmallows over fires, dancing in the rain, impromptu trips to wherever, staying up late to talk to someone you miss in a different time zone, trying something you've never done before, singing in the shower, calling someone just to remind them that you care about them, going to a rally, attending an opera, playing in a park, volunteering in your community, laughing so hard that you cry, reading a good book, listening to your children, picked up a new hobby, been in a religious meeting that really moved you, done something that scared you.......
L I V E D
Can you remember a time recently? I'll bet you anything you're willing to lose, that those parents of that baby...if they were given only five years with him....do you think they'd waste it? What if you only had five years left to live? Do you think you'd do things differently?
I know that we have to work, go to school, become educated, pay bills and all of those "responsible things." I'm not saying throw that out and begin a hippie lifestyle of peace, love and poverty. Instead, I'm challenging you to enhance your life by actually living it.
Until next time
Bon Voyage
Think wayyyyy back....we left off the last blog with me visiting my family for the harvest holiday, during that whirlwind of a weekend I ended up getting swine flu.....which is awesome because I was vaccinated against it.
Swine Flu:
Swine (formally H1N1) is like the regular flu, sinus infection, strep and mono all got together and made a baby. To tell you that I can't remember ever feeling that miserable would be a lie.....but I hope that I don't ever have to feel like that again! Or at least for a while. It takes you OUT. The best part is that I had to drive back to cedar with this lovely disease....super achy body, exhausted, coughing, nauseated, feverish miserable me....driving. For those of you who don't know. I HATE DRIVING DISTANCE. Seriously, anything that passes the 45 minute mark is pushing it. Road trips? I'd rather die. In fact please just pre-emptively execute me so that I don't have some kind of psychotic break during the "super-fun road trip" and endanger the lives of everyone around me. In order to get from cedar back to Salt Lake, I would rather wait an hour in the little airport, fly for 45 minutes and then have to wait another hour in SLC than drive. Granted it's not AS bad if someone else is driving, but none of my friends have cars, or at least cars/driving skills that I would trust to any lengthy driving.
Needless to say, I was out for the next week; sleeping 18 hours a day.....and that drive was one of the worst I have ever had to endure.
Midterms:
A word second only to "Finals" in the kind of anxiety it instantly creates. At this point I had missed an entire week of school, meaning that not only had I missed classes, but I didn't even have notes to study from. The problem with being a science or any "hard-core" major is that, if you miss class....you will have absolutely no idea what's going on. Such was the case with me. I did my very best to read the chapters, catch up on lab work and borrow notes from friends....but in the end I epicly failed my midterms. Some of them I didn't fail, but all of the scores were low enough to drop my class grade by an entire letter. Which means that I will now have to spend the rest of the semester acing EVERYTHING in order to fix those.....as if there's already not enough pressure on me to do well.....thanks swine flu. *sobbing sounds.....*
Ballroom:
You knew this section was coming. Don't act too surprised. Basically the past several weeks has been all about publicity for our upcoming show (it's this weekend!) and lots of little shows in an attempt to get the word out. Including but not limited to.....
- The Howl: the university's HUGE Halloween party where we were dressed up like zombies! Check the pictures out on facebook if you get the chance! We looked sooooo eerie!
- The Homecoming Parade
- The Homecoming Game Halftime show- country western line dance, fully decked in cowboy apparel
- Bread and Soup Nite- a monthly food bank event, students get in free with a can of food. And there's always live entertainment
- The 158th Cedar City birthday party, prestigious!
After the performance at the Cedar City birthday party there was a huge party at Ariel's house for the entire company and it was so fun! It was really nice to see everyone outside of a rehearsal environment :)
True T-Bird Night
Funny/ridiculous story of this blog. Okay, so every year there is a school sponsored event/tradition called "True T-bird Night" where you kiss someone, on a full moon, at the stroke of midnight in front of this statue and then you are dubbed a true-suu-thunderbird. Kind-of ridiculous....but hey it's a tradition. I had no intentions of going until Lizzy invited me to go with her and Megan. One of the things on Lizzy's bucket list is to kiss a complete stranger....and true-t night provides the perfect opportunity for something like that. Basically this event is like the mardi-gras of kissing.....
Okay, so at TTB (sorry I'm already tired of writing it out lol) we were just kind of standing around and then all of the sudden the countdown to midnight begins.... 10.....9.......8.....Lizzy finds her stranger...and I am still standing there awkwardly when one of my best guy-friends on ballroom approaches me and says, "You and me Lycia".... and in my mind I think, "Why not?" this guy is nice, this kiss means NOTHING, and then I'll have taken part in this tradition. Yay college experiences.
So I end up kissing previously stated friend. And life moved on from there. Was it kinda weird the next day? And in ballroom after that? oh ya. Not even gonna hide. But we're such good friends...that both of us were just glad that we hadn't ended up kissing creepy people haha. It was our little secret. We knew that if anyone on ballroom ever ever ever EVER found out, it would cause some serious drama.... so we had a firm "no tell" policy, which was working out great UNTIL.....
The school newspaper had covered the event, and on the back page of the next week's edition was a picture..... and yours truly leaning in to kiss friend truly..... and all hello broke loose. Even now I can laugh and just think how completely ridiculous it all is....but man -there were some people that were not happy about it. Why they care so much? I have no idea. But I felt like a celebrity for a day....you know? When celebs have something personal that they didn't want anyone else to know about put all over the news? yup. Moral of the story, don't kiss people if you don't mean it....or at least make sure there aren't cameras to bear witness to such an exchange.
The Six Chicks:
Oh drama. So Brenna was getting into all of these spats over stupid things with the other girls and keeping things from them, which just led to her feeling bad about it.....basically an absurd lack of communication led to Brenna moving out of the apartment and into a different eccles unit. I think the entire thing is really stupid. Brenna started dating this guy and right as she was about to tell the girls, Megan expressed her disdain for said guy and so Brenna, not wanting to have this budding relationship kaboshed, decided not to tell them. Pulling off of history, I can't blame her. The Six Chicks never liked Adam (my boyfriend all last year) and it put a major strain on the six chick dynamic and on Adam and my relationship. I could never be around my boyfriend with my friends, and I really hated that. Brenna didn't want the same thing to happen to her....
And then there are the basic roommate things of not helping out around the apartment enough, and personality differences that led to head butting. Anyways, Brenna no longer lives there....and as of right now, it feels to me like she's being exiled because everyone is still so upset about this that no one has really moved on...... it's ridiculous.
Dating:
Yuck. Here's where I'm at. I want to either....
- Haul off and get married
- Forget about boys and dating until after I finish school
- Find a meaningful-no pressure relationship
There is this crazy idea I heard of, where people date to get to know one another, to see if they're compatible. Where you're in a relationship for the sake of the relationship. A person that you care about who cares about you, and extended support system. With no pressures to immediately get married..... Maybe it's an "outside of Utah" perspective.... but even my marriage prep-class (LDS institute) says that time is your best friend. When I first started dating Adam, I thought I was going to marry him.....but after eight months we both realized that we weren't the best match. Can you imagine if I had done the "utah-wedding in three months" plan? I would have married him, and been stuck for time and all eternity to a man that I didn't even know, that I would've ended up hating.
I would really love to be in a relationship again, just for the companionship aspect. But if people can't figure that out than I'd rather just be alone. Heaven knows I'm busy enough already haha.
Just this semester I've been stood up, I've dated a man who was MARRIED.....ya didn't know about that, a guy that had a girlfriend and was just looking for his "other woman," been flirted with a ton by nice guys who never have the guts to actually ask me out, and have been avoiding my everpresent ex, while all trying to stay positive about the dating experience. Eff the dating experience. Forget the games. If you like me, then like me and do something about it. If you don't, then please just go away.
What I've learned: Buckle your seatbelts kids....this is heavy stuff.
On my last shift in OB, I watched a baby die. A pre-mature boy with underdeveloped lungs was delivered at 21 weeks (that's not even halfway) he tried to cry, to start breathing on his own, and his lungs collapsed. From there the baby went from respiratory arrest to cardiac arrest and died right in front of me....and there was nothing I could do. Harder than that, was watching his parents fall apart after witnessing the death of their new son. I literally had to excuse myself from the room to do "paperwork" so that I didn't break down with them.
I never understood the saying, "Life is fragile," until that exact moment. And watching their despair I wanted more than anything to give a part of my life so that they could have their son back.... they could have twenty years of mine....they could have it all.....but then I rememebered that we all die, and timing is never good for tragedy. I saw an amazing play at SUU recently called "Our town" and in the third act, the heroine is dead and watching over the world she barely left and she says, "Were we all that blind? We don't even take the time to really look at each other anymore, to see anything in our lives for what it is, until it's too late." This line hit me like a ton of bricks....and I realized that my life is just going through the motions.
I feel like everytime I try to do something "bucket-list" worthy or something that I'll remember and can talk to my children about......I get scolded because it's "not in line with what I should be doing." Let me ask you readers, when is the last time you took the time to actually live you life? The kind of living with the no regrets policy? The kind of life that makes you happy? That makes you, you? That separates your human experience from everyone elses?
Call me melodramatic (trust me it wouldn't be the first time) but I'm talking stargazing, roasting marshmallows over fires, dancing in the rain, impromptu trips to wherever, staying up late to talk to someone you miss in a different time zone, trying something you've never done before, singing in the shower, calling someone just to remind them that you care about them, going to a rally, attending an opera, playing in a park, volunteering in your community, laughing so hard that you cry, reading a good book, listening to your children, picked up a new hobby, been in a religious meeting that really moved you, done something that scared you.......
L I V E D
Can you remember a time recently? I'll bet you anything you're willing to lose, that those parents of that baby...if they were given only five years with him....do you think they'd waste it? What if you only had five years left to live? Do you think you'd do things differently?
I know that we have to work, go to school, become educated, pay bills and all of those "responsible things." I'm not saying throw that out and begin a hippie lifestyle of peace, love and poverty. Instead, I'm challenging you to enhance your life by actually living it.
Until next time
Bon Voyage
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